Tag: Relationships

Ignite

Terah Van Dusen5 Comments

We both checked
the stars that night
checked the stars
for signs of life
I wish I may
I wish I might
put an end to
the search tonight

Could it be possible
to know a love unstoppable?
Does it begin with
hello, friend
and if so then
how does it end?

Some are so lucky
others hit just
below the mark
I’m putting it out there
I’m wondering if there’s
something there
I looking at you
I’m thinking yes
yes yes
I gripping my
freedom
white knuckled
I’m having a hard
time letting go
I’m watching
this spark
ember upon
ember in the meadow
I’m waiting
watching hoping
for this fire to go wild

The Fine Line

Terah Van Dusen5 Comments

There’s this fine line
with strangers, lovers
I step too close,
and I tend to,
you recoil
like I do,
afraid of snakes.
You wave too
earnestly and I
am disinterested
afraid of your need
like you are afraid
of my need
All we can do
is watch one another
and wait for a move
a move we can both
live with
It is amazing
we are even oriented
facing this same line
at the same time
time time time time
time always brings
us together
don’t wave
don’t step
don’t shudder
whisper at this
love
or get drunk
and battle it out
in tongue
So afraid
so afraid
we are of
one another’s
need
time
time
time
time tells
us when
to love
when it’s
okay
Lately
I                      scare it off
sudden movements
and I have lost
sudden movements
and I fight too
so afraid
you are so afraid
of me
I am so afraid
of you
I can’t house
your need
I don’t have
the energy to
Handsome one,
tell me how high
and yesterday I
would have jumped
but today
this
time
time
time
I bid goodbye
until that day
when we will stand
eye to eye
at the line
the fine line
and the timing
will be right
just right
finally right
for love
to fly

Cave Dweller

Terah Van Dusen9 Comments

I tiptoe back
into my cave
here I know
no love
and my dreams
are slaves
the walls they’re
painted with
a man and child
that have no faces
I am unaware
of the setting
and rising of
the sun
because these
walls prevent me
from seeing changes
notes of promise
are left at
my doorstep
letters dated
weeks before
by men
who’ve waited,
but wandered,
ignored
I must emerge
for work and play
but the delights
of the cave
forever tempt
me to stay
where I can
dream in
the dark,
write by
match
and
flame.

Hot & Cold & Nothing In-between

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I want to be on
top of the world
but am unwilling
to climb even a mole hill
I want to grab IT by
the horns,
by the balls
but I’m either
too weak
or too disgusted
I want fame
but I am unwilling
to emerge from this,
dinged and dented, shell
I want Home Sweet Home
without paying a cent
I want love without
getting naked
I want it masked and
mysterious and
practically perfect
I want pleasure
and I want it to roll
and unfold forever
I want truth but I
like fantasy even better
I want respect,
I want it now,
and without having to give it
I want the Earth but I want
Starbucks to-go cups too
…and cars
I want family but not
red and green holidays,
toothaches,
ignorance,
incest,
smelly bathrooms,
ugly toes,
he-said-she-said’s,
why don’t you’s,
chatter-induced headaches
and taking care of Dad…
I want friendship,
health, and happiness
but I refuse to go out
and get it

I Can Smell You

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Your words
and gestures
reverberate in
my head

I cannot fathom
how you got in
I locked the
front door
and the back
I let you in for
tea once
or twice
We maybe
went for
biscuits
and gravy
…and has it
been that
long?

You met my
father
We cursed
our mothers
but I locked
that door
before I left
When did you
get in?
I can hear
your words now,
see your gestures
I can smell you now.

Love Me

Terah Van Dusen9 Comments

I just
won’t let you
love me

For months
all you’ve
seen is me
Still I won’t
let you
love me

You’ve proved
yourself a man
beyond belief
Still I won’t
let you
love me

Your hair is fair
your eyes are blue
just like the man
I envisioned to
be you
Still I won’t
let you
love me

You told your
cat grandma
sister dad
I am the prize
the only prize
to be had
Still I won’t
let you
love me

You find me
brilliant
You find me
rare
You’re fine
yourself but
I do not care
Still I won’t
let you
love me

You’ve serenaded
You’ve paid your dues
You’ve worshiped me
while I’ve laughed at you
You’re coming back
You’re wanting more
Your fire hasn’t faded
through it all
Still I won’t
let you
love me

Lover’s season
is almost over
You never even
made me your
lover
I let you touch
me once
I let you touch
me twice
Your touch was
fine
Your touch was
nice
You touched my
toes
You touched my
heart
But you didn’t
violate me enough
from the start
Crazy me
Sick-girl me
You love my
nasty me
Still I won’t
let you
love me

Off to a Good Start

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I’m desperate
and rainy
Has my well
ever been so
empty or so
full?
My life
is a laughcry
I think it over
far too often
I’ve created a
drama out of a
mundane,
ordinary
life
simple, at best
What will it take
to complete me?
Not a man,
Surely not
a man.
Surely,
surely
not a
man.

Cowboy

Terah Van Dusen6 Comments

He brought with him
in the fall sixteen mare
He was no longer a
whisper in the wind
and so much more
than a warm body
at the dinner table
She had married
another in his absence
and she knew all along
it was a foolish foolish
mistake and we all knew
she was a fool indeed
It took him a decade to
blow off his steam, the
wild one that he is
Twelve years later and
she still wonders where
his wheelchair might take
him, and when.
The ex husband has long
rotted and her children
were never loved
But the cowboy
the cowboy has
her heart.